Where I have been…….

I have been MIA for quite some time, and wanted to say Hello to you all. I see I have a bunch of new followers and I am super excited about that!! It has been a rough few weeks for my family and I. We had some unexpected loss of some very close people in our lives. It started on February 27th when my son’s Grandfather passed away, then the following Sunday, March 6th they lost a cousin and then the next Saturday, March 12th we lost a very close family friend. We have just been living in complete shock and disbelief. I have never seen such tragedy so close like this in my life.
I myself have just lost motivation to do anything, no crafting, no blogging, anything. I just feel so sad and empty inside. In the midst of all of this, I have been doing some serious thinking about life and love and friends and family and have realized that life is too short. I think about all the missed opportunities and brief goodbyes and hectic lives and not making time for those people we love and care about. In my life, that sort of thing is not going to happen anymore as much as I can prevent it. We are not guaranteed tomorrow and today is a gift. I want to live knowing I myself have lived to my fullest and enjoyed my life family and friends. I will never miss an opportunity to say I love you or spend some time with friends and family. Every little second counts and I am going to use ALL of mine! It has also opened my eyes to thinking about my health and that I should be taking better care of me so I can be here for many more years. I know I am young but that does not change anything, the above people we lost were 60, 40, 39 all of those are young way too young! I keep thinking about this saying.
“Don’t get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life.”
How true are those words, we all need and want and work so hard to fill those needs and wants that sometimes we all forget what is really important. We can have all the latest gizmo’s and gadgets and big house and nice cars, none of which we can take with us when its our time to go. The only think you can take with you are your memories, nothing else will matter at that point. Sure you can leave it all to your family, but that is not going to make them feel better or miss you any less or comfort them. The things that will comfort them are not things at all, it is your memories you leave them with the time you spent with them the impact you left on their lives.
I think what impact will I leave on my loved ones what will they remember me for?? What would they say after I was gone? What memories will they talk about? What kind of impact will I have on them when I am not here? What have I taught them? These are questions I have no answers to, but I am going to do my best at leaving a good impact and memories on those I care about. I want to live my life to the fullest and do the things I love and try new things and share it all with everyone!!
I want to thank all of you because I love to come here and read all your blogs, some make me laugh and others inspire me and some have made me cry, it is great to see so much sharing and caring all going on here. It is truly amazing!
Thank you all for listening to my rambling it all probably makes no sense, but I really needed to vent! =)
((HUGS)) ~Jan

18 thoughts on “Where I have been…….

  1. Jan, I am so sorry for all the losses that you have had in such a short time! I know that your heart must be broken right now. Thank you for sharing this wonderful post, you are so right, we are only here for a brief time, and we need to LOVE hard, and enjoy our friends and family.
    Prim Blessings!
    Karen

  2. Praying that you and your family will overcome these losses. It's hard losing someone you love anyway but then having back to back tragedies is just not what we ever expect.

    Deanna

  3. Janice, sometimes it takes something like what you and your family have just gone through to make us realize just how precious every day is. I couldn't have written it any better myself. You've touched on all that is important. The saying is one that I printed out on some pretty scrapbook paper and put in small frames and given to friends and family here and there. Many of which need to take the saying to heart! Not spending time with friends and family, racking up “material” items only to complain about $$ to pay for stuff and “wishing” they spent time with someone once they are gone.
    I hope happier times are ahead for you.
    Blessings,
    Sheila

  4. Jan, my deepest condolences to you and your family and your friends as you deal with these tragedies. I can't even begin to imagine what you have been going through these last few weeks. Truer words were never spoken Jan, your post is insightful and heartfelt and I thank you so much for reminding us all how fragile is this life and how fleeting our time here on Earth. Everyone, hug your loved ones today, tell you that you love them and stop for a moment and appreciate the beauty of our wonderful, fragile Earth. Thank you for the reminder Jan and {{hugs}} to you and yours, Deb

  5. Jan I am so sorry for all of your loss, so sad that things happened. I agree we get so involved in things that we neglect the important things the things we take for granted that are there. Big hugs praying for all those affected by this loss
    Brenda

  6. Sending big hugs! Your family has been down a very sad path in life. Time will heal some of the empty feels you have but not all of them. Enjoy each day and hug everyone in your life.

  7. Jan I am so very sorry this has happened to you and your family. But you are so right…this tragedy has opened your eyes to look forward to the future. A future where you can leave a big imprint on those already around you and those whom you have yet to meet. Live really is to short to be saying…..I do it tomorrow.
    My Heart goes out to you and your family.

  8. I am so sorry to hear of all your losses. How sad to lose so many loved ones. You are absolutely correct, we need to cherish the time we have and spend it with loved ones and friends. We need to live life with no regrets. Take care of yourself and your health too. You need to be here to share in your families joys and memories. Take care.

    D

  9. I'm so sorry for your losses. It makes perfect sense Janice. Your experiencing these feelings is a normal reaction when hit with so much trauma as losing three loved ones so close together. Although the things you speak of doing is a good thing to do. It's good you're back online with us, and we're here for you to vent and express yourself to:) Hang in there and things will get better.
    Hugs~Carol

  10. You 'ranted' some great advice there, Jan! It's good that you can journal about it. Helps to move things along the right path. So sorry for all of the family losses and that you needed a reason to rant. My prayers are with you and your family.
    XXOO,
    Vicky :0)

  11. Oh my goodness Jan!!! I'm so sorry to hear about all your losses in the past few months! It's not fair that one family should deal with so much all at the same time! You definitely have the right outlook on life!!! I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers!!

  12. Thank You everyone!! This is why I love blogging, it is great to know your not alone and it helps to heal! =) All your comments are so very much appreciated!!

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